r/exmuslim • u/Ihatethis22448 • 22h ago
(Rant) 🤬 Five fucking times a day
We all know what I'm talking about. The five prayers we all have to do. Which bastard like omg genuinely WHICH ASSHOLE DECIDED TO TORTURE US ALL. FIVE TIMES??? HOW ABOUT I JUST WONT GET UP AT ALL AND STAY PRAYING.
My parents CONSTANTLY ask me "have you prayed?, have you prayed?, HAVE YOU PRAYED?". I ENVY everybody that doesnt have to go through the endless questioning. I hate hearing them ask "is it praying time?". My little cousin who is autistic keeps on saying for like 5 mins "is it praying time? Let's pray now" and starts LOUDLY praying. GOD SHUT UP.
I hate it. Its torture. No father I haven't prayed hell I never have. You wanna know how I felt the first fucking time praying? I felt like I was praying to nothing. Like I was saying shit that I first of all didnt understand and second of all didnt make any sense to me anyways.
5 fucking prayers. I think they are also different from each other but god I dont know I've never prayed seriously before.
Its so pathetic and sad. Its embarrassing and I'm just glad I get to leave all of this behind. I haze seeing that stupid praying rug. I hate wearing this stupid shit when praying. Only good thing is that women are meant to pray at home while the men go and pray in a mosque (lowkey misogynistic because they get this pretty place while we get a dirty ass room other there but hey atleast I dont have to go there).