I'm going through mental health problems out of nowhere and I'm feeling so alone idk wtf is wrong with me I'm gone through many thingssss and now I'm so done with everything like literally everything

So in the past there were some people who I used to be friends with that will always be in in my personal business, and will talk about my personal business behind my back to my other friends.

Lately, it feels like the universe has a script, but I am never given a leading role. Every beautiful moment, every stroke of luck, and every good thing seems to happen to everyone else around me, while I am left standing in the shadows, wondering when it will finally be my turn. It is exhausting to watch life fall into place for others while mine feels completely out of sync.
But what hurts the most is the realization that I am always the one chasing. I am the one who reaches out, the one who checks in, and the one who holds onto people so tightly, terrified that if I let go, they will simply forget I exist. I pour so much love and effort into the people around me, hoping they would match my energy, but instead, I am met with silence or bare minimums. It has brought me to a lonely conclusion. I am only wanted when I am needed. I am a convenience. An option. Someone to turn to when they are bored, lonely, or need someone to hear them out. But the moment their skies clear up, I am pushed back to the sidelines. It feels like my only value lies in the fact that I am always here, always available, and always willing to bend over backwards just to keep them from leaving. it is a deeply painful way to live, to love so fiercely, yet feel so entirely unwanted.

I [22F]was in a relationship with a guy [27M] for past 2 years.So many issues went by:he cheated on me with a women of 30 year old and they were involved physically and later he confessed.I forgave him and move in with this relationship.Later I came across that he lied me that he is having a diploma in graphic designing he didn’t even pass his 12th grade ,he had family issues he belongs to a dysfunctional family and he was short tempered,he used to slut shame,verbal and physical abuse me alot.He even interfered in my personal life and relationships because of him I failed in one paper in my Postgraduation sem exam.After all these I initiated to breakup with him.He tried to convince me alot he came over to meet and talk with me things went even bad-he tried to snatch my phone and ran away I stood like a rock knowing that I am in a trap and blackmailing me with a blade.My family do talked with him saying they are not satisfied in his actions and they were unacceptable.He chose to speak up to my father about their health conditions and about my traumas which I used to share with him hoping he will understand me .He just use that his weapon against me .He told my dad that I smoke and drink regularly and I am sexually frustrated and so and so…..After 3 hours he messaged me on ig calling me by my nickname I blocked him since then I didn’t talk to him.Now he is posting stories like he is missing me and I am the one who throw him(victim play).I was forced to change my number and shift to another city now I am among some good people but I throw what I built all by myself for about 18 years for a devil .now i am trying very hard to fit in my peers this creates a big conflict inside me…Help Mee!!!!!!!

So im 17m. 2025 was both the best and worst year of my life. As for the best, i got into a relationship with my own crush. And for the worst, one of my parents got cancer stage 4 and had to spend my half 12th garde in banglore for him, soon I came back to my hometown for college only to be admitted in hospital for 3 weeks that top far away from my own family. Good thing that my aunt took care of me until I recovered and my mom came at the last week during sept month.

2025 has been nothing but hospitals in my life. Never in my 17 years of life was i admitted this severely. I was diagnosed with typhoid first and later severe case of dengue. I used to cook for myself and my grandfather while my mom and my elder sister took care of my father while he was recovering. And due to me doing all the home chores alone I eventually skipped meals and ended up with this case.

Life could not get any better during winter, had massive fights with my own gf due to her toxicness that forced me to break up with her in June 2026. I had gotten so weak in the year 2025 that even a slightest weather change would cause me fever. I was hospitalised for 3 weeks in sept, got fever during dusshera, again got cold in December and lastly got sick during my boards and couldnt perform well in it, only to be end up in ICU in the month of early june 2026.

After my boards and competitive exams I enjoyed to my fullest, joined gym with my friends only to end up in ICU. This was one of the worst phase of my life. Cause for straigjt 5 days my ear was aching like hell along with my left side of forehead. I used to sleep 16 to 20 hours a day thinking this is normal fever but it wasnt. Later my left hand started to act strangely. My left hand started to curl up itself and i had no power in to open my fingers of hold anything, it felt like paralysis. I ignored it for 3 days until it got worse. Checked with the hospital and was admitted in ICU for nerve infarct in my left side of brain which caused the stoppage of blood flow in my brain leading me to always sleep. Feel lazy and slight loss of vision in my left eye (5/6 vision). Eventually I recovered and joined a university only to be left out alone.

Ever since I broke up with my gf and got through that hell phase. Nothing seems exciting to me anymore in every aspect of my life. I was the extrovert guy with the whole school being my friend. But after 2025 i became silent. My parents also asked me whats the matter why did you got all silent suddenly, since I was a rebellious kid always causing some trouble. Me becoming so silent and calm suddenly wasnt the thing they expected. I find nothing interesting, everytime i try to do something, my thoughts directly says "oh this is gonna be this way and shi" like my thoughts speak to me like they already know the script.

I even got betrayed by my own friends. They got me grouped alone, put some fake allegations saying i back bitch about them on Instagram, when I demanded proofs there was none. 2 of my friends who i was since 5th std slapped me and couldnt hit me anymore when i said that do whatever you want cause you are ass lickers, licking and glazing each others ass hairs". I felt betrayed at that time and I just stopped talking to everyone. This didnt effect me that much cause I moved on from it within 3 days and that was my problem

Instead of feeling betrayed, broken or sad. I feel nothing. Not in a sigma way. But the kind of thing where you dont know what to think. No thoughts about that betrayal. No sadness, no sorrowness nothing. Its kinda good in a way but since I am not being sad or crying about it. But it does affect me other way. I always think why I am feeling this way? Why cant i be like normal people around me? There are many pretty girls in my campus. And I dont feel anything about them too. I thought I would make a female friend or a female bestie who can emotionally support me. But again, in the back of my head my brain speaks "its the same script, you'd fight sometimes, either one of you would catch feelings get into a relationship and have those fuckass fights and breakup again" and i just couldnt shake off this feeling cause part of thinks its right. Why approach someone have a talk for years only to end up like strangers again. But another part of me feels like thats how life is and thing. I know thats how life is. But even I also want to end up in a good terms. Im okay with being stangers with my best f again but atleast in a mutual break.

I have no one to talk to, my elder sister is in same university. But my image infront of them is like whether I live alone or in a group i dont give a fuck type of. But i cant tell them it also effects me so much from inside. I tried to reach out with my close friend group of 2. One has became a wanna be niche since he came to banglore trying to rizz the huzz and shi. Every time I try to open to him he just straight up interrupts me mid way and that is not even from the topic i was speak thats a whole another topic that he brings and eventually I shut myself. The other one is just narcissist flexing his marks, money and always cries infront of me about everything. When i open up to him he just says oh I see and starts his rant saying my father said he'd gift me hunter 350 if i got a govt medical seat and shi. So I just cant open to anyone now.

If you're reading this post, i would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading this big paragraph. It would mean a lot to me since you took your time out and read this shit from my shitty life. If you want to help from giving advice. I would gladly accept it. I just want to get out of this emotional numb phase and want to live life again 😊.

m19 I don’t know what to do I feel so lost and don’t know why or what to do in life

Someone pleaseeee help me to fill the emptiness inside of meee, honestly. I rather died but feels alive rather than be boring.PLEASSSE.

My friend and I had a stupid argument a few weeks ago. I thought we'd get over it like we always did but things have been different since then. We barely talk now.

I keep wanting to message them but I am scared I will just make things more awkward. I really hate losing people over things that probably didn’t even matter.

Hello, today is my birthday and.., I don’t know, I feel something strange, it’s almost 3am and I don’t know how to explain this strange feeling I’m feeling; it’s like sadness, anxiety and fear. I don’t know why... seriously. Maybe I guess it’s because that time my for you of tt became something personal and I started thinking about how the world is currently, in the sense that no girl wants something for good, they always leave with the worst, and it’s not the first time it happens to me, I don’t understand where I’m failing if I practically do everything right, even they themselves tell me, that I’m everything they’ve wanted all their lives, but in the end it’s always the same

Need someone to talk to about some mental stuff please dm me I need it right now