sometimes being repeatedly forced to have sex with someone does funny things to your head. you might start feeling some sick attachment. you might even start thinking you love him. or that you need him to decide things for you and take care of you. maybe you even miss him and consider going back. maybe you fantasize about it happening again. maybe you feel a strong desire for comforting but only from him. maybe you keep it to yourself because people get angry when you say things like that. maybe youre so ashamed you have to cover your face in your hands and say nothing.

I (19) Female invited someone (M19) I was attracted to over my house after a party. We were both intoxicated but I let him know beforehand that I did not want to do anything besides tamer things and he didn’t have a condom so I was just expecting kissing and MAYBE some hand work. Well we were kissing and I was fully dressed but I felt him move my shorts to the side

I asked him if it was his hand multiple times and he said yes, but i felt something bigger go inside of me and his hips were against mine and he started moving. I asked him like I thought it was his hand and he said no it was at first.

I called him weird and cussed him out and said No but he did not get off of me so I just gave up & eventually participated

Is this my fault?

I was raped twice, once at 14 and once at 18, by my ex boyfriend. I developed ptsd from the first time. I know that because of my condition I think about my experiences a lot but every so often it becomes so overwhelming that it’s essentially all I think about. Usually I just keep it to myself because I think most people aside from my therapist would find it off-putting to listen to me. I don’t use social media a lot and I don’t typically give out identifying information. My ex has a history of stalking me and I’m afraid he might see one of my posts and identify me somehow. I know I shouldn’t be doing what I’m doing but I feel so desperate for other people to acknowledge what I went through. Does anyone else experience something like this? Where they can’t stop thinking about it more than usual? I’ve never posted on social media platforms much before and I can feel that craving validation from people online is affecting me somehow. I feel like some sick disgusting person from how much I think about it. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. If it was so terrible why can’t I stop thinking about it? Why in the world am I posting about it?

The first time I went to this guy's place, he played with my vigina while I was sleeping. I woke up to him playing with it and enjoying it. I was in so much denial that I went back to him this Sunday and he got me an edible and he said he doesn't do weed and smoke cigs but yesterday he took the edible and was smoking cigs. Anyway yesterday as I laid in his bed and was trying to fall asleep but my body wouldn't let me ... so I faked sleep and as I was doing that he was touching me again, like rubbing my body and I could feel his penis got hard and pulsated as he did it. And he kept checking if I was actually asleep like looking at me dead in the face and checking if I was asleep it was so uncomfortable. He's mother is also weird. She was up in the late hours of the morning with him. And when things got too much I asked if he could take me home he kept stalling it. Like he literally took 45 minutes before I could go home. I went to go sit in his car and he got in and out of the car about 5 times to check something. Was my life in danger. Help.

hi everyone, I'm in my late twenties (female) and have never had a boyfriend...

I was date raped twice 4 years ago, and again 2 years ago.

I have other sexual trauma too, in childhood, teenhood, and adulthood.

I also have been a sex worker since I was 17.

I want a boyfriend, but I am terrified to try dating again. I'm so afraid of it happening again. I'm afraid of men. But I'm starting to get older and I feel like I'm running out of time to find love. I feel like theres something wrong with me that I havent had a relationship. Would men even want me when Im this damaged?

What should I do? Are there methods to not feel afraid? How do you trust men again? How do you trust people again in general?

So, im the person, who, doesnt care much bout when happened. I wanna move on yk. But i cant. Like, i spemd 13 hours sleeping. Assignment is due three weeks. God has been merciful, he gave me holiday after holiday, one day girls were took to picnic, another day , the kindergardeners were taken to picnic, next day, middle schoolers were taken to picnic. Another day rain, god has been very helful. But, my lazy mind, would just prefer to sleep or cry. Im tired of it. Advise plz, my teacher will kill me.

I feel like I sound like a dick for what I’m about to say but I want some advice from someone who will know what I should do. I’ve been with my boyfriend(18m) for a year now and this morning he told me in conversation that as a kid he had been assaulted by his cousin. I’m not going to spill all of his business here because it’s not my story to tell but I’ll just say that because it’s the relevant part. He didn’t seem super upset but it was brought up because of something I did. I had been touching his chest playfully (this is something I do often that he’s never had an actual issue with, we play fight a lot) and he said jokingly “I feel like I’m being molested, I’ve already had that happen once”. I pulled my hands back and asked what he meant, apparently he had thought he had already told me about it but he hadn’t. He explained what had happened and I didn’t really know what to say, he didn’t treat it like a big deal so I didn’t want to make it one but also I wanted to make sure he knew that what had happened wasn’t okay. my boyfriend has a thing where he feels like everything is his fault and that he do deserve space the way everyone else does and I try really hard to help him heal this and learn that he is deserving of love and respect just like everyone else. I ended up just saying that I hope he doesn’t talk to this cousin anymore to which he responded that he does and that they live next door to him (no one ever found out about the assault). I’ve met that cousin and I don’t know how I’m ever supposed to look him in the eyes again without ripping him apart, I hate that this could have happened to my bf. I wish I had been there to protect him because he really is the sweetest most generous person and all I want is to protect him from everything.

That’s one thing I’m grappling with a bit is how I’m going to ever be around that family member. I want to say that I want to cut them off but I know that’s not my place.

I’m also struggling though with now overthinking everything I do and have done trying to figure out if I’ve ever pushed him too far or made him feel uncomfortable and he just never told me. I know he’s had girls in the past push him to do things he’s uncomfortable with so I always try to be careful not to but I’m just overthinking now.

Can yall give me some advice please? I personally haven’t dealt with SA of any kind so I’m not sure what to do. I’m kind of just sorting through my thoughts here. I feel like an ass for writing this because it seems like I’m making it about me and it’s not but I just want to make sure I’m doing what I should for my bf.

In March, I was hanging out with this guy thats 20 years older than me and I was laying on the bad on my stomach and he crawled on top of me and started touching me and stuff, I managed to get him off me but then later he forced me to deep throat him and then fingered me really roughly and when I tried to get him to stop he ignored me, but im still not sure if it was rape or not? We were fooling around and doing stuff already but he just took it to far and I made it obvious I wanted to stop. After this I hooked up with a guy and penetration really hurt when I haven't had an issue with it before and other guys i've been with since have fingered me and it just hurts but whenever I do stuff on my own its completely fine and everything feels good. Its now september and I was making out with a guy on the weekend and he started touching me and I just moved off of him and started crying even though i've done stuff with him before and I'm really comfortable with him and he's never tried anything bad, im just confused.

So it was going dark and I was at my best friends house. She lives alone and we drink alcohol together

I got a little drunk and she proposed having sex with me. I don't remember everything right but i was very confused and stressed when she asked that and i agreed out of panic. I told her a while after that i dont really want this and she didnt react or do anything

During it i was to akward and scared to say no

Sorry for bad English

alguien paso algo similar? nesecito consejos , todos los días reviví el trauma