[Serious] M21 Dealing with the lasting effects of rape in the gay community

[u/RedSolo04]

I grew up in a small town in a heavily conservative area, and it took me until I was 17 to fully realize and accept that I was gay. When I was 16, I was raped by my then-girlfriend. At the time, I didn't realize it was rape, but there was significant coercion and social pressure to have sex. I first considered it to be rape years later in college when talking to a friend about it. I have a reduced sex drive and find it very difficult to get comfortable when engaging in sexual activities with another person. I’m not really able to do hookups because of this, and it’s hard to find someone willing to go slow in the gay community. I’m mainly here to vent, but I was also wondering if anyone has advice or can relate.

[u/No-Ocelot3622]

What happened to you was not your fault, and realizing what it was years later doesn’t make it any less real. You don’t owe anyone hookups or a faster pace than you’re comfortable with; the right person will care more about making you feel safe than getting somewhere quickly.