If I did, then more people would take care of me like they did before, but now they think I’m needy and just want handouts, so i don’t know if I deserve living anymore

Duniya mein kisi ke paas bhi power, hukumat, authority, maal, izzat ya asar-o-rasookh apni zaati milkiyat mein nahi. Jo kuch kisi ko mila hai, Allah hi ke ikhtiyar aur mashiyyat se mila hai.

Allah farmata hai:
“Tu jis ko chahta hai hukumat deta hai aur jis se chahta hai hukumat cheen leta hai. Tu jis ko chahta hai izzat deta hai aur jis ko chahta hai zillat deta hai. Saari bhalai Tere hi haath mein hai. Beshak Tu har cheez par Qadir hai.” ( Sura Aal e Imran: Ayah 26)

Is liye duniya ki koi hukumat Allah ke ikhtiyar se bahar nahi.

Aaj koi hukmaran hai, kal nahi.

Aaj koi saltanat taqatwar hai, kal kamzor ho sakti hai.

Aaj koi qaum buland hai, kal uski jagah doosri qaum aa sakti hai.

Power ka milna bhi Allah ki taraf se hai aur power ka chhin jaana bhi Allah ke ikhtiyar mein hai.

Lekin iska matlab yeh nahi ke jis ko Allah ne hukumat di hai woh zaroor Allah ka pasandeeda hai. Hukumat kabhi ne’mat hoti hai, kabhi imtihan, aur kabhi kisi ke liye mohlat ya azmaish. Allah hi sab se behtar jaanta hai ke kis shakhs ya qaum ke saath kya hikmat hai.

Isi tarah izzat aur zillat bhi Allah ke haath mein hain.

Kabhi Allah kisi momin ko duniya mein tangi, kamzori, bimari, maal ki kami, job ka masla, business ka nuqsan, ghar ke masail ya kisi aur mushkil ke zariye azmata hai. Aur kabhi koi mushkil insaan ke apne gunahon ka nateeja ya tanbeeh bhi ho sakti hai.

Lekin hum kisi specific mushkil ko yaqini taur par Allah ki saza nahi keh sakte, kyun ke uski poori hikmat aur haqeeqat Allah hi jaanta hai.

Momin ka kaam yeh hai ke mushkil ke waqt mayoos na ho. Woh Allah par bharosa kare aur apne aap se pooche:

“Allah mujhe is haal mein kya sikha raha hai? Kya mujhe apni zindagi mein koi ghalat kaam chhorna hai? Kya mujhe Allah ki taraf wapas aana hai? Kya meri ibadat, mere aqeede, mere maamlaat aur mere akhlaq mein koi kami hai?”

Agar hum Allah ke faisle ko samajh na bhi saken, tab bhi hum yeh jaante hain ke Allah be-hikmat faisla nahi karta.

Usay hamara maazi maloom hai.

Usay hamara haal maloom hai.

Usay hamara mustaqbil maloom hai.

Usay hamare zahir ka bhi ilm hai aur hamare dilon ka bhi.

Hum sirf aaj dekhte hain.

Allah poori tasveer dekhta hai.

Is liye momin ka kaam Allah ke faisle ke saamne sabr, tawakkul aur rujoo ilallah hai, yaani Allah ki taraf lautna.
Agar mujhe koi health ka masla diya gaya hai, mujhe Allah se shifa maangni hai aur halal ilaaj karwana hai.

Agar job ya business mein mushkil hai, mujhe Allah par bharosa karte hue halal asbaab ikhtiyar karne hain aur apne maal aur kamai ko check karna hai.

Agar ghar mein biwi-bachon ke saath masail hain, mujhe apne rawaiye, insaf, huqooq aur zimmedariyon ko dekhna hai.

Agar zindagi mein koi aur imtihan hai, mujhe Allah se door hone ke bajaye Allah ki taraf aur qareeb hona hai.
Mera kaam yeh nahi ke main Allah ke faisle par Allah se shikwa karte hue toot jaaun.

Mera kaam yeh hai:

“Ya Allah, mujhe nahi pata is imtihan mein Teri kya hikmat hai, lekin mujhe yaqeen hai ke Tu jaanta hai. Mujhe is imtihan mein sahi rawayya ikhtiyar karne ki taufeeq de aur mujhe Apni taraf aur qareeb kar.”

Aur agar hum apni zindagi mein Allah ki na-farmani kar rahe hain, to humein sirf duniya ki mushkil door hone ki dua nahi karni chahiye.

Humein taubah bhi karni chahiye.

Zina chhorna hai.

Sood se bachna hai.

Jhoot chhorna hai.

Cheating chhorni hai.

Wada khilafi chhorni hai.

Maa-baap ki na-farmani se bachna hai.

Haram kamai se bachna hai.

Zulm se bachna hai.

Apne huqooq aur doosron ke huqooq ada karne hain.

Aur Allah ke saath apna aqeedah durust karna hai.

Shirk se bachna hai aur ibadat sirf Allah ke liye karni hai.

Qur’an ko sirf padhna nahi, samajhna aur us par amal karna hai.

Har ayat ko apni zindagi par apply karna hai:

“Allah mujhe is ayat ke zariye kya sikha raha hai?”

Aur jab hum Allah ki taraf sachchi tawbah aur ita’at ke saath qadam barhate hain, to humein Allah ki madad se umeed rakhni chahiye.

Lekin yahan bhi humein Qur’an ka balance yaad rakhna hai:
Muslimon ki duniyaavi kamzori ko sirf doosron ki sazish keh dena Qur’anic approach nahi.

Qur’an humein apne aamaal ka muhasabah bhi sikhata hai.
Allah farmata hai:

“Allah kisi qaum ki haalat nahi badalta jab tak woh khud apni haalat ko na badlein.”
— Surah al-Ra’d 13:11

Is liye agar hum chahte hain ke Allah hamari haalat badle, to humein apni zindagi badalni hogi.

Aqeedah durust karna hoga.

Ibadat durust karni hogi.

Muamlaat durust karne honge.

Akhlaq durust karne honge.

Haram se bachna hoga.

Taubah karni hogi.

Ek doosre par zulm aur dhoka chhorna hoga.

Aur Allah aur uske Rasool ﷺ ki ita’at ki taraf lautna hoga.

Hum ita’at ke paband hain; nateeja Allah ke ikhtiyar mein hai.

Bani Isra’il ki misaal humein yeh batati hai ke duniya ki sab se badi taqat bhi Allah ke saamne kuch nahi.

Fir’awn ke paas hukumat thi, lashkar tha aur zulm ki taqat thi. Woh Bani Isra’il ke beton ko qatl karta aur unki aurton ko zinda chhorta tha. Lekin jab Allah ka faisla aaya, to Fir’awn ki tamam taqat usay Allah ke faisle se na bacha saki.

Is liye power ka hona bhi imtihan hai aur power ka na hona bhi imtihan hai.

Hukumat milna imtihan hai:

“Main Allah ki di hui power ka kya karunga?”

Aur hukumat na milna bhi imtihan hai:

“Main kamzori ke waqt Allah par kitna bharosa rakhunga?”
Duniya ki izzat milna imtihan hai.

Duniya ki zillat ya mushkil bhi imtihan ho sakti hai.

Aur dono surat mein momin ka rasta Allah ki taraf hi hai.

Jo kuch aasmanon aur zameen mein hai sab Allah ka hai.

Aur jab sab kuch Allah ka hai, to mera maal bhi uska hai, meri sehat bhi uski amanat hai, meri family bhi uski amanat hai, meri job bhi uski ata hai, meri power bhi uski ata hai aur meri zindagi bhi usi ki di hui hai.

Is liye mujhe apni zindagi Allah ki marzi ke mutabiq guzarna hai.

Allah hi Maalik hai.

Allah hi Qadir hai.

Allah hi izzat dene wala hai.

Allah hi zillat se bachane wala hai.

Allah hi hukumat dene wala hai.

Allah hi hukumat cheenne wala hai.

Aur aakhir mein hum sab ko usi ki taraf laut kar jaana hai.
Mera kaam Allah ki ita’at hai.

Nateeja Allah ke haath mein hai.

I’m a Christian and very much believe in Jesus and want to honor him but I can’t stop doing wrong. I’ve gotten myself into prostitution and a bunch of other stupid things. I had a gambling addiction but I’m now realizing I have a deep money addiction and I keep putting it before him and I’m not honoring him the way I should be. He can’t possibly be pleased with me. I go to church and read the word but faith without works is dead and my lifestyle follows nothing Jesus stood for. I want to love Him but I can’t change my ways

Today I saw testimony of one woman, she said when she was kid and playing with another kid, Jesus appeared and said to come away from him he is not belong to God. I wanted to know what causes this? Why God denies his creature, kid. He even not started to live, and God denies him from his Heaven. Just why?

I'm not necessarily angry, rather numb.

I feel like God is against me. Everytime I think I'm secure, I struggle. Anytime I think I can get happy or excited over anything, it turns negative. Anytime I feel like I'm doing something right, something goes wrong everytime.

I feel like God has left my side or something. I feel as if he wants me to continue to struggle, to constantly feel behind. I don't know why he keeps waking me up in the morning if it's disappointment everytime.

I don't know what he wants from me. What he wants me to do. But he keeps letting me down, putting me through struggles, obstacles. Putting people in my life who serve no purpose and just hurt me. Just anything that makes me want to give up.

Last year, I went through too many consecutive illnesses. Throughout it all, I remained faithful and prayed, believing that no sickness could ever falter my faith and that whatever I was going through was simply a challenge I needed to face.

But right now, I am living with very bad health anxiety. I have become extremely conscious of my body. Even the slightest pain becomes amplified, and I have become stiff because moving means feeling things, too.

I know some of you may think that perhaps I am having a faith crisis. Maybe I am? But I believe in Him. I truly do. It’s just difficult not to be afraid when my prayers aren’t answered in the way I hope they will be.

And I just don’t know where to draw the line between “Ask, and you shall receive” and having faith in the midst of a challenge. I’m afraid of the challenges because I know, for a fact, that what I experienced last year traumatized me.

I think that’s what makes faith difficult for me right now, not that I’ve stopped believing in Him, but that I’m afraid of what might happen even when I pray with all my heart.

How can all these people that base the entirety of everything created in Gods universe off of a small ball of particles and dense heat that exploded into what’s known as the universe? It’s just so frustrating. Look, I’m always trying to learn more about God. Also I’m not religious. I follow God. That’s it. When I saw the video with Cliff Knechtle, he stated that anyone who follows religion is a fool. Why did he say this? I don’t understand how following religion is considered foolish. Cliff Knechtle is very informed on the bible and God. Almost like he’s some angel on earth. Back to the science stuff though. I wish it was easier to convince these people that are lost to believe in God. I know he gave us all free will. So I guess that means there’s nothing we really can do? I’ll make some more post later because I have so many questions. TIA.

This life I have doesn’t matter, if it did, God would have fulfilled his promises that convinced me I could be the girl I know I am and felt truly loved by him if he did it. But since things just get messed up, just tell God to end my life already because he doesn’t love me and humans think I’m a nobody unimportant. I’m sorry, but I don’t want to suffer like this, it’s been over 20 years suffering, so there’s no point believing God since he lied to me and let humans make him look fake like he’s Santa clause or the Easter bunny.

I have been having a rough couple day's mentally. I know god is with me and I am trying but not well. I was outside smoking picturing god grab my arm but it felt odd and kind of out of place so I stopped. A second later I felt a hand right there where I pictured, almost real like someone was holding my arm.

I have never felt anything so real even if it was inside my head.

At the moment I liked it but kind of let it pass until a few minutes later and it really hit. I sit here and its growing in my heart with thankfulness and love and just wanted to share for some reason.

Man, I love Jesus.

Oh another, I was laying in bed just talking listening to the bible. I have an issue separating the three. I put them as one and then I split them up. I talk to Jesus, or God, or the Holy spirit sometimes separately but the same.

I asked if they were one or different, was Jesus with God or was Jesus god and split up in a way. I heard a voice, it was deep and ancient kind of feeling with it. Deep and almost terrifying. "We are one."

I always wanted to hear his voice but I have issues but that, that must have been him.

Like, could the question "Why did God make the world the way it is?" be answered by "Simply because He can."?

Sort of like what Einstein & Musk claim is Spinoza's God, to which they subscribe?

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Like what is his ultimate goal .what the f is going on . He is pathetic and a control freak. He is in control of everything , like what the f is his agenda. He first hits you to hurt you , them he puts remedy in front of you. What does he wants. What is his agenda. This world is fake as f and smokes and mirrors. Like it's full of gaps and plot holes and logical fallacies . This world is running supernaturally .

Like it has a lot of fragmented and small narratives all working separately but as a whole they don't fix together . God is manually turning the cog imo and these small narratives don't fit together . They are like a broken mirror imo.

Like politics is fake and evolution is fake and there are many other things that are fake but they are there for the sake of show and a narrative . Like I said ,this world is full of small fragmented narratives that are irrational. So cringe . This world is a tradegy .

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I’ve been thinking about the whole “who created God?” / “something can’t come from nothing” argument, and I actually think people accidentally cheat when they talk about “nothing.” Because when I say nothing, I mean literally nothing. No matter, no energy, no space, no time, no physics, no objects, no laws, no rules. Nothing. Not an empty universe, not black space, not some void sitting there for a trillion years. Literally nothing. And here’s what’s weird: if you say there’s a rule that “something cannot come from nothing,” then technically you don’t have nothing anymore. You have nothing + a rule. Because “cannot” is a restriction. So where exactly is that rule supposed to exist? It can’t be a law of physics because physics doesn’t exist. It can’t be a property of spacetime because spacetime doesn’t exist either. I think people picture nothing like an empty room where nothing happens, but an empty room is still something. It has space, it exists through time, physics works inside it, there’s cause and effect, etc. Actual nothing wouldn’t even have time. So asking “why didn’t nothing just stay nothing forever?” doesn’t really make sense, because there is no “forever.” There isn’t nothing → a billion years → still nothing → another billion years → still nothing, because there aren’t any years. There isn’t even a “before” in the normal sense. And I think that changes the “who created God?” question too, because I’m not saying nothing → God. I’m saying there eventually has to be some fundamental level of existence that doesn’t get its existence from some previous physical thing, otherwise you can just keep asking what caused the thing before it forever. Call it necessary existence, fundamental reality, God, whatever for now. The important part is that it wouldn’t have a previous physical cause because physical causation is already something that happens within reality. If time itself comes from this fundamental level, asking what happened “before” it might be like asking what’s north of the North Pole. There wasn’t nothing and then God showed up five minutes later. There is no five minutes. There is no prior state. And this is where my idea gets weirder lol. Imagine all the different ways reality COULD have been: different particles, different laws, different dimensions, different histories, different universes, whatever. Our universe is apparently one specific configuration out of this enormous conceptual space of possibilities. So the way I’ve been thinking about it is basically 0 = Null, meaning absolutely nothing external or pre-existing: no physical world, laws, time, etc. Then ∞ = Potential, meaning every logically possible way reality could be. Then 1 = Mind, meaning one unified thing capable of comprehending those possibilities. Then Creation, where one or more of those possibilities becomes actual or experienced reality. So basically 0 → ∞ → 1 → Creation. Null → Potential → Mind → Reality. And the reason I think “mind” is interesting here is because minds do something really frickin strange: they can represent things that aren’t physically there. I can imagine a blue sun right now, and there doesn’t need to literally be a giant blue sun floating in my bedroom for the information or concept of that blue sun to exist in my mind. So representation ≠ physical existence. And I think that matters, because if unrealized possibilities have any kind of existence at the deepest level of reality, maybe they don’t exist as physical objects somewhere. Maybe they exist as possibilities comprehended by some fundamental mind. And THAT starts sounding a hell of a lot like what people have historically meant by God. Not necessarily some old dude sitting in the clouds, but something more like the fundamental mind/reality that contains possibility and from which spacetime, causation, and physical reality derive. And it also gives an interesting answer to “what did God make the universe out of?” Maybe nothing. Not “nothing” as some kind of material, but in the sense that God wouldn’t need external building materials in the first place. It isn’t God + cosmic bricks = universe. It’s more like Mind + possibility = experienced reality. An author doesn’t need Middle-earth to physically exist somewhere before writing Lord of the Rings. The world can exist as information in the author’s mind before it exists on the page. I’m basically wondering whether reality could work through an infinitely more fundamental version of that relationship. And obviously I’m not saying this proves Christianity or Islam or Hinduism or any particular religion. It doesn’t even completely prove God by itself. My argument is way narrower than that. I’m saying absolute nothingness cannot contain a law forcing itself to remain nothing, because then it wouldn’t actually be absolute nothingness. And absolute nothingness can’t “remain” anything anyway because remaining requires time. So existence doesn’t necessarily need to be explained by something that happened BEFORE existence, because “before” and causation might themselves be features of the reality we’re trying to explain. Eventually you need some fundamental thing that doesn’t depend on a previous physical state. And IF that fundamental thing somehow comprehends the total space of possible realities and can instantiate one of them, then you’ve ended up with something possessing a bunch of properties traditionally associated with God: necessary existence, unity, existence outside or underneath spacetime, knowledge of possibility, and the ability to create reality. Which leads to the part I find funniest. Someone can ask “okay, but who created God?” and my response is basically: why are we assuming the rules governing created things also govern the thing those rules ultimately come from? Creation and physical causation might be relationships within reality. You can’t automatically take those relationships and apply them outside the system they’re describing. But then I can flip the question around: why does nothing need to exist? And if the answer is “because something can’t come from nothing,” okay… where did that rule exist when literally nothing existed? That’s basically my entire argument lol. I’m not claiming I just mathematically proved God in a text message. I’m saying I don’t think “nothing” gets to be treated as the obvious default state of reality, because the second you give nothing rules, duration, causality, necessity, or a requirement to stay nothing… you’re not talking about nothing anymore.

As a kid I was forced to attend church. I loved God. But, as I got older and wasnt forced to go, my beliefs changed. As life got worse, so did my mindset.

Hypocritically enough- I hated God but yet didn’t believe in him?

In 2020, I got laced with something that caused a continuous episode of disassociation. I fully believed I wasn’t a real person after this. I dealt with really bad intrusive thoughts, and a new fun thing that had started happening was my sleep paralysis episodes.

the first time was in 2021. My eyes opened and I couldn’t move. my boyfriend in the bathroom and I know he was because the lights were on in there.

At that moment nothing was around me, I just couldn’t move. I fully woke myself up after he came out and just let it slide. It started happening way more frequently.

People would be in the room. Having sex with me. I don’t mean just dreams. Actual sensations. Demons. It’s scary. Sometimes they’d disguise themselves. People I know. Beautiful strangers. But everytime I couldnt move. It had gotten so bad I stopped napping. Everytime I did something bad would happen.

2022 I had started to fill the hole in my life by having sex with a ton of people. I was so lonely- no family, hardly friends 22 year old woman navigating a new life in a new city. Loneliness took over. I didn’t care.

Last year, I met a girl. She was super religious. She talked about her beliefs so much and at that point I got irritated. I took the lords name in vain all the time and didn’t care. we talked about him. I told her I’d never submit to his teachings or the bible. Yet, I never called her stupid for how she felt.

I told her about my sleep paralysis. I told her how bad it would get. Marks on my body. Drained energy. It was like maybe once a week at this point. Little demon guys with long tails (pain from Hercules lookin ass) sitting on my stomach. People surrounding me. she was instantly concerned.

She told me to call out the God. “Say you rebuke in the name of Jesus Christ” and it’ll stop.

I don’t recall how long it took for me to do it, but I did. The first time I did it, she ended up being right. But I didnt say rebuke I said “I repent”

She told me to try again, call out for God and say you rebuke and yell at them to go away for God is protecting you.

Ngl, at the time I was like ?? Ok sure whatever

but I had the absolute worst case of sleep paralysis one night.

The room I grew up in, was red. I heard laughter around me. I screamed. It started as a dream and I ended up in my bed half asleep. The guy was on my chest and another person standing in my doorway. His face was disgusting. My bed has a metal piece behind me, it’s kind of like the headboard? I tried to grab my phone to call for help.

I called out for my mom first. My mom passed away in 2023. I had a dream about her about 2 years ago with her saying she’s happy and safe now and goodbye. I hadn’t dreamt of her since. so at this point I don’t know why my first instinct was to call for her. But I started to yell “I rebuke! In the name of Jesus I rebuke and I repent! I rebuke in the name of Jesus!” And this thing started to try to choke me. And then he disappeared.

Im still half asleep, okay? I look to my left with my eyes. in my room im sleeping in- a man is next to my bed sitting on a chair. he has like either white Or light blue clothes on. White hair. Just a man sitting next to me. He says “I’m here to protect you.” And then I fully woke up.

I don’t know who that was but I will tell you that def changed my life. however, even with that happening I wasnt a believer 100%.

I still struggled with things. Creepy shit online doesn’t help.
but, I met my boyfriend. I got drunk and told him my experiences. He gave me his cross necklace and told me it would keep me safe. I told him my story. We started reading the bible together. Praying before we eat.

I talk to God. Not a full prayer but a conversation.

I struggle with some sleep paralysis things?? Not like what I used to. One time my boyfriend and I were arguing and I woke up half asleep to him, the room white, and said he came to visit me and I needed to sleep so he came to lay next to me.

I woke up and he was gone. so I called him and asked him if he came over and he said no, because he has assumed I would’ve been upset if he did.

Another time my boyfriend left to work and about 10 minutes later (I know this because I checked the phone as soon as I fully woke up) he came back to the house. I was half asleep trying to wake myself up but my “boyfriend“ said “babe you need to wake yourself up now.” And when I called him he said he didn’t come back after he left.

I will continue to believe. I am not a Christian. not a catholic. just a person trying to maintain a relationship with Jesus Christ.

Thank you.