Sobrang hirap ako gumalaw, especially now that im on my low lows. College has been very hard for me, i cant keep up with my activities and quizzes. Im currently on Lurasidone, it works but mas nago- outweigh yung slump ko. Grabe ako ma burn out, maliligo lang kailangan ipahinga ko pa

Hello, it is completely true that relying on AI can make you dump. And I am unfortunately a victim. Academically, it hurts to say that I used to be a smart, fast on my feet, typa student. I would participate in recitations. Be quick on coming up with an answer that I am proud of. Now, I feel like my brain isn’t working anymore. I take so slow to think, to answer. I do not feel creative anymore. I’ve been having job interviews lately and I am so disappointed in myself because I am just all over the place when I answer.

Apart from the obvious of stop using AI, what else can I do? I want to seriously get back to writing because ever since AI took over my brain, I cannot write an essay anymore that I am proud of.

Just 1 sign to not end the pain tonight. I don't know what to do. I can't speak! I'm so down

Hindi ako matigil sa pag iyak. Sobrang sakit na ng mata at ulo ko. Need ko na ng kausap. Please.

Hi! For those who experienced life burnout, how did you guys deal with it? At this point of my life kasi I feel like everything is meaningless. I have no motivation and nothing excites me anymore. For the past few weeks, naka auto-pilot lang ako. I just want to feel alive again :<

Especially sa mga bipolar.

24 M, I need someone to talk to about my heartbreak, family,

and... myself

update: thank you for reaching out, everyone...

I just don't have anyone to talk to. Should I leave a goodbye?

okay, hello tangina gusto ko lang mag-rant. yung mama ko kasi, we’re okay naman eh, like we’re best friends palagi, pero sa mga oras din minsan hindi ako anak, pwede maging therapist pa nga e. ps: i’m still a minor. i get it, minsan pagod na sobra si mama, lalo na unemployed siya, and to the point na my father is out in another country but can’t give us the proper money. kaya sa tuwing badtrip, rant si mama na gusto niya na kaming takasan ng siblings ko. if i did something wrong, she would abuse me, like tangina, bigla mananabunot? or sasapakin ka sa tiyan, pwede pa sampal e. i get it naman, minsan pasaway talaga ako, pero need ba talaga saktan? kailangan ba ng physical abuse for us to behave? tangina, i didn’t even cry when she did that. yung nakakaiyak lang is yung mga sinasabi niya, the things she said to me was more than anything. i mean, palagi naman siya ganon if sobrang galit na talaga. i remember, i was like nun pandemic, may need kami i-video na sayaw, and yeah, nandoon si mama and yung kaibigan ko with her mother too. tangina, sa sobrang bano ko sumayaw and nagalit na si mama, pinagsasampal ako? pinag-mumura sa harap nila. jusko, kung wala pa ’yung dalawa, hindi siya magso-sorry. right now, we’re like ignoring each other, acting na walang ganap... tangina. gusto ko na mabingi sa totoo lang. no matter what happens, in the end of the day, i still care about her. siguro dahil mama ko siya or what, dahil alam ko rin mga pinagdadaanan niya. parang toxic relationship eh. there’s more na nagawa niya, pero nakakalimutan ko yun palagi pag nakikita ko siya na natutuwa sa’kin :( like, i still alala ko, pero yk naman as a daughter na gusto mapatuwa mama niya. totoo nga ’no na maybe i’m so selfless. still sometimes im like her being that bitch girl na hindi mo maiintindihan pag nagalit.

Lahat ba nakabukod na?! Been seeing these types of tiktoks lately (or baka algorithm ko lang?)

I moved out of our house last May and grabe I feel so different now. Im much more in peace, di na ko sumisigaw, mas nakakasmile, di na masyadong nasestress, and I dont feel so depressed anymore. Tas mas nakakapagaral na ko nang maayos!

Wala lang chika ko lang I just feel so proud of myself.

Umalis ako samin right after namin mag away ng parents ko. Sinampal sampal ako nun ng stepdad ko tas sinabihan na kung ayaw ko na daw sakanila umalis nalang ako, edi umalis ako. Context ay: akala ng nanay ko buntis ako. Delayed at irregular ngani!!!!!! Nagka boyfriend kasi ako and ayun she watches the napkins in our cr eh before non parang prinepressure niya ko na bat wala pa kong period kasi parang di daw nababawasan yung napkin sa cr tas ayaw maniwala na irreg ako. Minsan 1 whole month wala ako pero the next month dalawa ganon. Pero ayun since prinepressure nga ako ng nanay ko edi binawasan ko to get her off of my back. Tas that day she went through the trash tas kita niya yung napkin wala naman daw dugo pero nasa basurahan.

So ayun nagkasagutan ganon ganyan, di naman porket may bf buntis agad jusq. Tas yun nagungkatan ng past. I admit na medyo pasaway ako pero its mostly sa di ko pag uwi nang maaga. My curfew is 8pm btw. My classes last semester was till 7 and di naman enough yung 1hr to get home kasi nag cocommute ako. And medyo palasagot talaga ako kapag alam ko wala naman akong ginawang mali. Mostly away namin ng nanay ko ay sa mga kapatid ko (half brothers), ako tumutulong sakanila sa mga projects, assignments, at kung ano ano pa. Pero kasi yung kapatid ko highschool na, so syempre sakin ayoko na tumulong masyado (by tulong I mean haha ako gagawa mostly) syempre as the eldest nakakainis yun eh. At that age kaya ko na lahat. Ako gumagawa lahat mag isa. Homeworks, projects, lahat ako lang walang tulong.

Witness ko jan kasambahay namin na nakatira na samin simula grade 6 ako. She witnessed so much of how my mom treats me and how my mom would play the victim just so my stepdad would side with her. I remember non binabalibag ako nun eh or kapag uuwi siyang stressed galing sa work sakin ibubuntong yung galit. Kaya ayun nung first time ako saktan ng stepdad ko inencourage niya talaga ako na magpalamig muna kami. Ewan ko but that time it was really overwhelming. Delayed din kasi ako sa school because Ive been dealing with my mental health talaga haha Ive been diagnosed with MDD and ADHD. But they dont believe it they just think Im lazy… kaya I work part time to buy my meds and for doc consults. They know my diagnosis and they even use my pwd id sa parking, sa eating, sa pagbook ng hotels. Galing diba pero walang support haha

Anyways ayun, I really didnt feel safe nun so I left. I slept at my friend’s place. Palipat lipat ako nun for 1 week. A few days sa family nung isa kong friend, then a few days sa dorm ng isa, tas last few days sa other friend ko. Pero ayun nahiya na ko kaya I really tried my best to find a place and when I did find one nun my bf helped me move in and buy everything that I needed. Im really grateful for them. Super. All throughout that week lagi rin ako kinukumusta ng yaya namin and it was really nice.

Tas nung kwinento ko toh sa counselor at psychiatrist ko they were so proud of me! And they also think that its the best decision for now. My family is really my trigger kasi like last year I tried to kms after my mom hurt me over laundry. Duguan ako non tas I felt so wronged kaya ayun. She gets really physical talaga to the point na when my bf rushed me to the er the docs and nurses asked me if I want to file a case.

Fast forward to 3 months later, ayun yaya naman namin yung umalis. Di na din daw kaya yung ugali ng mom ko. Now they’re reaching out to me haha I kinda feel guilty sometimes kasi I left my brothers but ayun I feel like they just want me to look over them lang…

Ang hirap bumukod! The rent, the bills, tas ayun nga I have meds and dapat regular consultations with my psych. But I believe that I can figure it out. Medyo mahirap lang ngayon kasi 1 lang part time ko. Luckily for me I’m still a scholar so I dont have to worry about my tuition wala lang stipend. :(

Money, job, and finished degree soon dust for me pls✨✨✨ I really hope everyone that has a toxic family be set free. Makakabukod din lahat :>

Nakakapagod sa bahay pag biglang may conflict yong parents ko, nakakapagod marinig sigawan nila. I don't even know what to do pag andon nako sa situation nayon, ang bigat lang sa pakiramdam. Parang wala rin namang silbi pag naging mediator pako dirin naman sila nakikinig sakin eh. Mas mabuti nalang rin siguro mag solo nalang, kung di lang talaga mahirap mag hanap ng trabaho eh matagal ko ng ginawa. I feel like being reminded again as to why i should leave hanggat kayo ko kasi before natitiis kopa naman if may mga arguments between them pero ngayon nag flashback nanaman yong mga times kung saan gusto ko nalang maglayas. Kapagod na buhay to :(

I've been hyperfixating on a specific media lately, and my main way of consuming it is through roleplaying with a friend. The problem is, whenever my friend isn't available or they can't roleplay for some reason, I get incredibly impulsive and start having thoughts of self-harm. It feels like a sudden crash because I can't get that specific dopamine hit, and my brain just goes to a dark place to cope with the frustration.

​I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety 8 years ago. For a long time, paulit-ulit lang yung cycle. I had to job hop because my mental health took such a heavy toll that functioning at work became almost impossible. My jobs back then didn’t pay enough to cover my maintenance meds, so I had to stop taking them. Syempre mag-i-spiral ulit ang mental health ko, hanggang sa wala nang choice kundi mag-quit.

​That was my cycle until 4 years ago, when I decided to end it all. I OD'd and sent a goodbye note to my best friend. Fortunately, na-save ako ng best friend ko. Seeing the pain on my friend's face made me realize how devastating a suicide is to the people who love us.

​Since that day, I chose to live. Every single day, I have to make the conscious choice to keep going. Eventually, nakahanap ako ng trabaho na kaya nang magbayad ng gamot ko. I mastered the art of compartmentalizing and basically became a "highly functional" mentally ill person.

​But honestly, nakakapagod din pala.

​Right now, I'm just trying my best to manage a team, constantly socializing, and doing executive presentations for my day-to-day job. On the outside, mukhang okay lahat. But inside, it drains every bit of energy and sanity I have. I just really want to vent to people who might actually understand what I'm going through.

​For now, I’ll keep moving forward. Maybe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.

I need to vent because I am completely drowning and terrified. I haven't slept since September 5 at noon. My mind is racing, and I’m actively having a panic attack writing this.

Here is my situation:

The Debt: I owe 94,000 PHP total due to an online gambling addiction. I have no job and no collateral.

Immediate Target: I urgently need 37,750 PHP by the end of this week. Out of that amount, 10,000 PHP is money I owe my girlfriend, and her birthday is on September 10.

Substance Abuse: I am addicted to meth. People around me are already starting to suspect something, but no one actually knows the truth.

The Guilt: My girlfriend is amazingly kind and sweet. She has done nothing wrong, and the guilt of hiding all of this from her and my family is crushing me. I feel like a terrible person, and I’m terrified of anyone finding out or being turned in.

Desperate options I'm considering right now:
Selling my phone: I’m planning to sell my iPhone 17 Pro Max (256GB) and downgrade to a cheap Android to get immediate cash.

The 2,600 PHP casino bonus: I still have a 2,600 PHP bonus sitting in an online casino account. It has a 1x turnover requirement before withdrawal. Part of my brain is screaming at me to just play it for one last big jackpot to clear everything, even though I know it's a huge trap.

I regret every decision that brought me here. I am scared, exhausted, and completely isolated because no one in my life knows the full picture.
Has anyone been at rock bottom like this and survived? How do I even begin to fix this mess?

Hello! I just got my prescription for concerta; I was really excited to finally get medicated, but sadly, Watson's and Mercury said they they've ran out, I asked if other branches still had it, but the possible ones also replied that they're out. South star is a bit hard to contact, and I'm afraid that there's no nearby drugstores left that sells concerta, where are other places that I can buy them?

Note: I'm around the las pinas/bf homes paranaque area

hello! does anyone know if pwedeng e-medcert ang ippresent to apply for a pwd id?

for context taga bataan po kasi psychiatrist ko and i'm from marikina so virtual sessions lang po kami 🥲

tapos ang binigay lang sakin is e-medcert. although i can request naman for a hard copy if ever

Hi! This might be an odd question. But does anyone know a therapist thats sex/kink friendly ? Due to personal reasons im searching for a therapist thats non judgemental with it or has a history on handling these kinds of topic.

Hello everyone!

I would just like to ask if anyone here (or may kakilala kayo) has ever been admitted to National Center for Mental Health (NCMH) for a 7-10 days Observation Period?

May I know how was it like? Were you admitted in the same room/space with other patients or isolated? May mga kama, unan, at kumot ba or sa parang bakal lang (daw) ‘yung higaan?

Dinala namin ‘yung partner (pwBPD) ko sa NCMH last weekend and he’s currently admitted for observation.

Thank you in advance sa mga sasagot! and I hope that everyone’s doing well. < 3

Hello!

Some time this year, I've been feeling drained and clocked out of my life. I took up a LOA from my studies, went to see a psychiatrist, got diagnosed with Anxiety/Depression, tried taking medications for a month, and it felt like it wasn't what I needed (I felt like the meds just made me sleepy).

It's been around 3 months since then and I've been contemplating other methods of treatment like psychotherapy. My main concern is I'm afraid that, like medication, I might not perceive it as worthwhile or suitable to what I need to recover.

My inquiry on this is: May I have recommendations of good psychotherapists on NowServing? What are your experiences with psychotherapy, and did you find it helpful in what you were going through? Is it comparably more reliable than medication?

Thank you all in advance!!

gusto ko na tapusin lahat ngayon na, hindi na ko natatakot, hindi na ako nag aalala, hindi ko na naiisip na may maiiwan pa ako. i created this account so i could bid farewell somehow haha dito lang ako may courage eh. stay safe everyone! :))

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Hello mga ka OP na lumalaban kahit gaano kahirap! Saludo ako sa inyo!

ako po eh meron anxiety and depression, currently nag gagamot sa unang gamot eh okay naman mgnda tulog kht pagising gising yun nga lng malabo lalo mata so pinalitan now nmn 2nd gmot is dami kong takot, magugulatin at malungkot nanaman. parng aabot sa pang 3rd na palit.

kayo po nakailang palit bago nahanap ang tama pra sa inyo? sa mga gumaling gaano po kayo katagal uminom? at nung tinanggal na musta po kayo?

salamt po sa sasagot.

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