I'm just done with the world

[u/E2UNlover]

Like genuinely no part of my life is doing well:

Family is abusive and luckily I managed to escape... Unluckily I am a trans woman so no name change and gender marker change for me until I no longer depend on their graciousness (me telling them that it would make them look bad if they just abandoned their "son")... I'm currently struggling with energy in general and I need a job while trying to learn a new language...

Yup I totally didn't move to a new country to live with my now ex gf that I'm still living with... Nope can't be me... (Still figuring out my sexuality btw xD ) And I don't want to move back because my home turf is currently going nazi all the way hurray...

Oh yeah and the healthcare here is fucking dogshit, wdym you can't evaluate me for f64.0 due to "feelings of depression" I handed you my diagnosis from my home country! And of course they got rid of the private healthcare for that so now I get Sertraline instead of estrogen without any way to fix it, well done Sweden! Hats off! You fixed my non existing depression!🥳🥳 (Not 🫩)

Well okay school is going well if I had the energy to show up regularly, which I don't, the motivation kind of died off completely the second I realized that my ex gf, who is also trans, had no fucking idea what she was talking about regarding trans healthcare in this country, she also doesn't speak swedish with me and leaves a mess everywhere... I'm just exhausted from constantly having to clean something and she and her new gf are just draining me as well... And I can't leave because living somewhere else is too expensive :D (low key just need a job and most of my issues would disappear eventually)

Oh yeah I've also tried dating, since I get asked out frequently, I thought I could give it a shot... Nope I'm good. Not right now, I have enough bs to deal with and sorting through all the men just seeing me as just ass and tits is not worth it atm

Vegan carbonara with vegan cheese

[u/matahxri]

I'm not Swedish and I'm not sure how much detail would be allowed on this sub anyway, but wrt the lack of 'official' access to HRT, there'll be ways around that

[u/E2UNlover → u/matahxri]

I studied biotechnology, for as long as I can get my hands on animal blood I have estrogen :D 

(I also know less tedious ways around it don't worry tysm though)

[u/tartinewithsardines]

🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 virtual hug

Also, and maybe it’s a shitty question but, I’ve had friends moving to Sweden and it was hard af and they’re not even trans… you mentioned school. Usually they have some kind of student help department, could you ask for help there ?

[u/E2UNlover → u/tartinewithsardines]

It's just sfi to learn the language.

🫂🫂 Thanks for the hug

[u/beingawomaniswork]

I don't think you should be dating right now until you can find a job and complete your school. Dating is a huge energy drain and we gotta conserve your energy and motivation for more rewarding things. Plus, a new relationship might ask you to move away from where you might end up with a new job/post college.

I think of life as having multiple pies and limited energy. No one can get everything right and prioritised. You need to be ruthless about where your focus lies, lest you leave every cup unfilled.

[u/No_Mulberry3433]

Sending love friend~
It does seem like you can’t catch a break. I’m also in a bit of a “stop fucking hitting me” slump but trying to keep on keeping on

You got this!
(Also that pasta looks like it would slap right now. I might go make some fettuccine)

[u/E2UNlover → u/No_Mulberry3433]

Tysm :D

Yeah rn life sucks, I'm also able to see a light at the end of the tunnel but oh well...

(The pasta is heavenly 😋)

[u/No_Mulberry3433 → u/E2UNlover]

I ended up making fettuccine at 4:30 am and it was so worth it lol

I know things suck right now but keep being resilient 💕