r/lifelonglearning • u/OldMarzipan9773 • 18h ago
I've spent the last 10 years reading and learning new skills, here are my thoughts...
I started my journey working construction and reading philosophy. I spent time reading Aristotle, Confucius, Dostoyevsky, Camus, Kant, Nietzsche, etc. Even to this day, I feel like my thinking has been influenced by them considerably, but as for actual progress in my life, I feel like they have had a detrimental effect. During my late teens and early twenties when I was mostly into reading philosophical works, I fell in a deep depression that has improved a lot over time, but was really hard to deal with when I was younger. I started having difficulty connecting with people and eventually lost all of my school friends and moved to California.
When I was in California, I kept reading. By this time, I was reading religious texts, history, psychology, works of fiction, and anything that I thought would have a positive influence on my thinking. Life was moving fast and I thought that things were finally getting better. But, I couldn't land a decent job. I thought that the copious amount that I was reading was going to translate into an opportunity, because somebody would notice that I was eager to add value to their organization. But, it never happened. So, I decided to upskill. I started web development and learning programming skills.
It didn't really make sense to me at first, but I learned the basics. Then, I got in a car accident. I, eventually, got paid out $45,000 from the insurance claim and kept working on my skills. I took courses on Coursera and Udemy on graphic design software, CAD, GIS, and project management. I moved back to where I was originally from and landed a job at a Civil Engineering firm.
I was having post-traumatic stress disorder and the beginnings of psychosis. So, after working there for 6 months, I was fired. I moved to Nevada afterwards and kept learning. While in Nevada, I built a web app that took me 3 months and tried to get a remote job. Didn't get any. I made over 30 posters in Adobe and Inkscape and started to experience extreme forms of psychosis. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and given medications. After spending time in Nevada, I decided to try moving to Las Vegas and getting a job there. I ended up becoming homeless and traveled to Los Angeles, where I was homeless. I traveled back to Las Vegas and after some time, my cousin flew me back to where I was from to live with my uncle.
Since moving back, I've worked on writing, graphic design, 3D modeling, programming, and learning new things like SEO and Business Analysis. I wrote one novella, two short stories, made over 10 animations in Blender, and created a few websites. I keep trying to learn new things and I face mediocrity in them, while struggling to find work for them. Online courses and resources from the Internet only teach an aspect of the things that I have wanted to learn about and I reach an intermediate level before I taper off and can't improve any further. Without a mentor, a network of peers, and an environment to apply and learn new things, improving past a certain point has been something that I have had difficulty with. So, that's what I'm working on now. But, just reading and taking online courses haven't improved my mentality and skills where I feel comfortable taking something to the market and working in a job. In some ways, it has been counter-productive for me and has led to me struggling more than I would have if I had just gone to college. But, that has been my experience so far.
TLDR: Reading, learning skills from the Internet, and applying them to projects only help to a certain point. And, without a mentor, a network of peers, and an environment to apply them in and learn new skills, it has been extremely difficult to advance past the intermediate stage to be able to bring something to market or land a job.